Life plays funny tricks on you.

There are just those moments in life that take you completely by surprise. Sometimes it can be wonderful, sometimes awful, and sometimes you just don't know what to think. It's kind of like the slot machine of emotions, in pulling the handle you hope for the greatest outcome and wind up losing your shirt. I had one of those experiences tonight, but it wasn't quite as bad as one might think.
I met up with some one I've had mixed emotions about meeting for quite some time. Half of me wanted to see him just to prove a point to myself, and half of me wanted to see if anything is left.
What I got was a mixture of both. Mostly that this person hasn't changed his opinion on some of the things I hold most dear, going to the point of making fun of it and making the reference that "any man who liked it had to be gay". Not exactly the best way to make some one see your point of view! While this is nothing new from this person, it just saddens me that it's just so petty, even if he may have meant it as a joke.
What did surprise me is the amount of anger I still had in my system. I was angry even in the midst of me feeling a bit of sympathy for this person. But then I'd get angry all over again, thinking about how much I hurt.
I'm sure I'll be able to work all my anger out eventually, but it's going to be a long process. I'm sorry just doesn't seem to make things better. Reminds me of a quote from John Wayne "Sorry doesn't get it done".
I'm definitely made of much stronger stuff than anyone ever suspected. I found that while I may bend for some one, I will never really break.