Curious thoughts

Sometimes I wonder why life gives me ups and downs in rapid order, or for that matter causes ups and downs in my friend's lives in relation to mine. A friend I care deeply about loses his job just as I learn that I am finally getting a job I have always wanted. I feel so badly for this friend even as I am excited to start my new job. I wonder why when everyone around me had no one, I had some one I loved, but when he fell out of love with me, everyone had some one. I often feel that I'm opperating on a different plane, that I must watch everyone around me get what makes them happy all at once, while I have to wait what seems like forever for one thing. I realize it comes down to patience and faith, even when I'm not known for my patience. I think I have the faith, but I really just want to be happy and content. I don't want much: some one to love, some one to love me, a job that doesn't drive me out of my skull, and a place to think my own thoughts without interruption. But I wouldn't say no to a VW bug in place of some of that!